we are constantly in search
of just the right therapists for L.
those that balance love and wisdom
with the proper amounts of pushing him,
while still recognizing that
eight therapy sessions a week is his life.
some too easily forget that it is possible
to make all this hard work, fun.
i really struggle with contentment.
contentment with L’s development.
my heart usually swings way to one side or the other.
that proper balance in the middle is really hard to get to.
currently, i have all the peace in the world
which can only be attributed to coming directly from Christ.
yesterday, some of what i am so cautious about
just like that.
our L took his first step.
all by himself.
with tears filling my eyes,
yesterday i witnessed something
that i had guarded my heart
from the possibility of ever seeing.
just to be safe.
just so it wouldn’t get hurt.
L taking steps is not something
i have even allowed myself to dream about.
but now it has happened
and i don’t even have to dream about it
because i saw it with my own two eyes.
and that image will be
pressed into my memory bank
for all of my days on this earth.
And the peace of God,
which transcends all understanding,
will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
But Mary treasured up all these things
and pondered them in her heart.
2836. L’s delight
2837. a new aide
2838. celebrating by D + K
2839. the right therapist
2840. L’s first step