then and now.

this pregnancy is so very different than my last one.
in every possible way.
and it is not lost on me.

i haven’t shared much about my pregnancy with L
on this little blog
as we had a blog during that time for family and friends
who prayed us through every single day of that difficult season.
but thinking about that pregnancy compared to this one
has been very cathartic for me.
it’s been difficult to compare these two pregnancies,
but incredibly beautiful at the same time.

with L, i was unexpectedly admitted into a hospital
where i was not familiar
nor registered
at 29 weeks
because i was in labor.

by the grace of God,
i was able to keep our little guy in for six weeks
while being on strict bed rest at the hospital.
my parents moved into our house to care for D and K
and B stayed with me in the hospital every single night.
L arrived five weeks early,
on my birthday.
such a gift.

that time in the hospital was so incredibly scary,
actually it was absolutely terrifying.
the unknown was so hard to handle and we were forced to take it day by day.
but God carried us through that season and He never left us.
our faith deepened more than imaginable.
and we got through it not because we are strong,
but because He is strong
our future is just as unknown today as it was then.
and we know that He is all we need.

it’s really strange going to the same parking structure.
the same exact parking structure
where i once was reeling with the news
that we were either going to bring our baby home the next day
or that our little guy was going to have a brain bleed and die.
we were told to prepare either way.
i still don’t know how one prepares for things like that.
it’s impossible.

and now, we go to this parking structure
with a really smooth and typical pregnancy
and we reel with the news that everything is on target.
such a gift.

But he said to me,
“My grace is sufficient for you,
for my power is made perfect in weakness.”
Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses,
so that Christ’s power may rest on me.
2 Corinthians 12:9.

3511. early drop-offs
3512. B arriving just in time
3513. another peek at the little baby
3514. the leaves dropping like snowflakes
3515. L’s not so early mornings

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