i am his voice.
and if i am not his voice,
i understand his voice.
i understand his signs.
and if i don’t know what he’s trying to say,
or sign,
i’ll die trying to figure it out.
i’m better at it than anyone.
because that’s what moms do.
i was excited to send the bigs
off to school this year.
the bigs, who can tell me
all about their day.
but it’s definitely bittersweet
to send L off to school.
you remember that
last year was such a nightmare.
i want this year’s school situation
to work out for him, so badly.
for him.
and for us.
i can’t be his only voice
nor do i want to be.
and this school environment is an amazing one
where he will have the support he needs
and they will try.
they will try to hear him.
try to understand him.
and it’s so necessary for me.
especially after last year.
what went down.
which all was such a devastating blow.
and a big bust.
so here we go.
on a new adventure.
one where all we know
is that we will see Him.
Teach me to do your will,
for you are my God;
may your good Spirit lead me on level ground.
Psalm 143:10