fully + all in

my journey of motherhood in a nutshell.

i just want to do everything all in.
don’t you?

fully and beautifully with whatever it is that i am doing.

not striving for perfection.
just presence.

but in order to do that, i must be fully there. fully here. fully wherever that may be. that is a requirement.

to feel that breeze, not once but three times through my open kitchen window. and to just pause, to linger there for a moment longer than seems necessary. longer than how the world would define necessary.

and to not chase efficiency over presence (my daily struggle).

do you know what i have discovered? and have been discovering? you can’t hear from God if you are relentlessly searching for inspiration. you must be still. you must be here. you must listen. and not flood your heart and mind with noise. just as elisabeth elliot so kindly reminds us.

i urge you to find
real
breath-filled
living.
not just doing life.

fight for it.
like your life depends on it.
because it does.