picture me {im}perfectly.pride

i struggle with pride.
often i think
if God gave me this life,
this exact life, 
then i can handle it.
i can handle all that He throws my way.

i sometimes have the mindset 
that i can do it all.

that i can do everything 
that needs to be done.

that i can do everything
that i want to be done.

but then, i get reminded that i can’t.
i really, really can’t.

for over a year, 
i have deliberated over a decision 
that needed to be made. 
and then finally, i made up my mind.
and was feeling great about it.
until one day.

and on that day, 
i knew that i needed to do 
the exact opposite of what i had decided on.
i knew that i needed to change my decision. 
on that day, i felt as though God was telling
me that this was how i could do it.
this is how i could do it all.
i could do it all by giving it 
totally and completely over to Him.
i could do it all 
by Him and 
through Him.
that’s how.

so i have made a decision. 
a decision that is affecting our entire family.
a decision that is affecting our 
days and 
a decision that is affecting our summer.

i have decided to enroll L 
in a pre-pre-school for kids with special needs.

the greatest thing about this decision has been 
that once i made the right decision 
for him,
for us, 
i knew it. 
i know that it is the right thing to do for our little man. 
the right thing to do for our family.
and i knew that this was how i was going to do it all.
how i was going to be everything for every person in our family.
this decision was a gift from God.

and so, we started two weeks ago.
and now, we have added nine hours of
therapy to L’s weekly schedule. 
to all of our weekly schedule.
so now, he is up to 14 hours a week.

if you’re feeling stuck,
read Jackie’s post from last week.
it totally struck a chord with me. 
i too, am one that easily gets stuck. 

picture me {im}perfectly
is a weekly project to reveal that we don’t have it all together.

i will post a 
picture me {im}perfectly
blog post every wednesday 
where you will be able to link up to your blog
revealing that:

you are not picture perfect,
your kids are not picture perfect,
your house is not picture perfect,
your crafts are not always picture perfect,

inspire and 
other women 
that none of us have it all together.  

add my button to your blog post
and link up to your direct posting
and feel encouraged. 

He must become greater; 
I must become less.
John 3:30

1266. L’s school
1267. my boys washing the car
1268. wooden puzzles
1269. L’s new collection of words
1270. new sand toys

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