sometimes you don’t know
that you’re in the thick of it until you
get a breath from the other side.
it’s been a long,
dark,
confusing,
frustrating
couple of months.
but i didn’t realize it until now.
L started having breakthrough seizures
on Christmas day
and they continued.
and continued.
and continued.
and he ended up having 26 seizures.
and his neurologist didn’t know what was going on.
and neither did we.
but God always knew.
He was always there.
with L.
with us.
God was with us.
and then L’s sleep got worse.
he was going to bed
later and later and waking
earlier and earlier
and we didn’t know what to do.
but He was with us.
so then we were finally able to start L on a new medicine
which made the seizures stop
but he was not himself.
and it was sad.
and i was sad.
and i missed the old L.
and then his body started to adjust to the medicine
and we got glimpses that our old L was back.
and He was with us.
and then he got a cold.
but a cold for others is always a bad cold for L.
and it was more sad.
and i felt even more helpless.
but He was with us.
He never left us.
and then his sleep improved
and his cold got better
and the seizures continued to cease
and normal happened.
our old normal.
what once was just typical and mundane
now had new life.
and i feel alive today.
really alive.
more alive in the normal of today
than i ever have before.
God always knew.
He was always there.
with L.
with us.
God was with us.
God is with us. He is with us. He has never left us.
He will never leave us.
but without the rough patches
the green pastures wouldn’t be so very great.
The Lord is my shepherd, I lack nothing.
He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,
he refreshes my soul.
He guides me along the right paths
for his name’s sake.
Even though I walk
through the darkest valley,
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.
Psalm 23:1-4
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