the mommy-and-me last week was incredible.
absolutely perfect for our sweet L.
the best part about it was that they recognize that he is perfect just the way he is.
i want to be in that world all the time.
actually, i think i have been in that world for a few days now.
that is, until today.
today it hit me (once again) that he doesn’t fit into the mold that most kids fit so nicely into. today we had a regular check-up (mind you, the entire thing took just thirty minutes less than K’s fun adventure) and i found myself flailing for words about his progress. it’s not so much of what people in the medical world say but it’s what they don’t say. it’s those quiet moments that are just a hint too long. those are the moments that i find necessary to flail for words to fill their abrupt silence.
but, i am learning to just be.
i am learning to just be silent.
i am learning to accept how L is today and not wishing or
wanting things to be different. i think in my heart i am there (or close to it)
but the moment that someone else comes into view, i feel the need to flail.
nothing i say in those moments changes what L can or can’t currently do.
it is incredible when i enjoy all that God has so richly blessed us with. all of those simple moments and the small progressions without constantly desiring for there to be bigger steps being taken forward. i don’t want to look back and wonder what life was like right now. wonder what life was like this very moment.
i want to cherish
our little L is progressing, and for that we are so grateful.
as i say on my sidebar:
i’m determined to not let those little mundane moments slip by.
the ones that distract you from whatever it was that you were on your way to do.
the minute simple moments.
moments to cherish for a lifetime.
And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.